preface
i have come to the altar of my brain more than once in the past eight years. i have come face to face, with death yet, much of my offerings have been love. followed by an abundance of forced smiles, and the most profound longing to be whole again. that is the reality of a soul. only the person that grows heightened awareness will always hunger for authenticity in the soul. in others, and within themselves.
this awareness can be cultivated by a variety of life-changing factors since it’s well known that life is ever-changing. there is not ever only one answer to one problem, nor is there one feeling for one experience. our soul was made to encounter a multitude of emotions, so what happens when an event in our life makes us believe we must reject the most honest version of ourselves? the weaker become a human splinter, injecting those that do not need piercing. i believe that the stronger of us learn to thrive on diligence, and the sublimity of turning pain into heightened awareness. in my dire venture for peaceful longevity, i have learned we supplement a surge of bad energy into ourselves for the rest of our lives if there is no change in self-awareness.
why hurt your soul, when you can replenish it?
why hurt someone’s soul, when you can invest in it?
there is only one thing that closes up one's soul for what will feel like an eternity to get back open. that is love. that is the lack thereof. the neglect. the mistreatment of gifted thoughts, tied to present circumstances that kill you. the yes and the no, the damage of where our cerebral serves to create a genuine relationship with another. the taking of a wanting. the painful causes of life for no apparent reason, other than life’s meaning itself — that it is meant to be lived not understood. the knowing that if you live to be understood, you will die every time. only to realize that with time, we can understand and live fully as well. the power to achieve that lies solely in our will to accept everything that has ever happened to us. the art of building an insightful tolerance, for mundane things from your point of reference.
I have now seen a duality in every heart and soul that ‘loves’ someone. Reality shifts and life is a real spin around the sun when you feel ‘that’ love. the kind of love that makes goosebumps trickle down your spine, and your blood turn into moonshine.
in love, there is no record of wrong. in love you don’t only forgive. you forget. knowing that in between the trial and error of your own wrongdoings is grace. the grace to let go of what is preventing the connection, instead of holding onto what will destroy it. the thing that will create your pain in the future is remembering all the bad, instead of thinking of ways to make what is breaking you come back together again for good. If this desire does not naturally inhibit you from another, it is because this desire might be lacking in yourself.
the words you must learn to love in your 20s
metamorphosis
turbulence
growth
masterpieces
attempt
duality
circles
i have learned you can make sentences with these that will bring you home when you feel the world has dragged you out of yourself. my sentence is ‘I know that a turbulent metamorphosis causes growth, but i go in circles and feel like a master of pieces instead of a masterpiece when the duality takes a hold of me and here I attempt to know nothing more.’
i encourage you to make your own.
thank you all for reading! will post more soon. follow @taintedsun if you’d like to read more of my thoughts & reflections.
with love, jupiter.
